Tuesday, October 28

Strong Enough

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I'd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man, my man?

Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave, don't leave
I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
Just try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man, my man?

Are you strong enough to be my man?

Are you strong enough to be my man?

Are you strong? My man.

When I've shown you that I just don't care
When I'm throwing punches in the air
When I'm broken down and I can't stand
Would you be man enough to be my man?

Lie to me

I promise I'll believe

Lie to me

But please don't leave

Friday, October 24

I’m far from being gorgeous but I am my own kind of BEAUTIFUL ...

Thursday, October 23

No one's gonna love you like I do ..

Tuesday, October 21

One Last Glance

“My heart might be bruised, but it will recover and become capable of seeing beauty of life once more. It has happened before; it will happen again, I'm sure. When someone leaves, it's because someone else is about to arrive--I'll find love again.” 

― Paulo Coelho, The Zahir

He broke me but I’m thankful for that. No sarcasm, bitterness or whatsoever. I stooped and pick up my broken pieces, all on my own, without needing any help from anyone. I am stronger than I used to be. I chose to be stronger and that’s because of him.

Monday, October 20

"try to wrap your little brain around my feelings"

Saturday, October 18

Dead End

“How do I run from what’s inside my head”

Last night was indeed not one of my best nights. I couldn’t sleep. I’m in my room, lying on the bed but my mind is somewhere else. My mind is thinking about him. I know what he is, I know how he works, he’s a “hit ‘em and leave ‘em” type of guy, what I don’t know is what’s between us, on a second thought, I was reminded by myself, yes by myself that there’s actually nothing between us, but still I am always at lost for words when it’s about him and I’m talking nonsense right now because I don’t know what else to say.

Friday, October 17

"Never thought that it would be so hard" -dgt

Thursday, October 16

Unforeseen Circumstances

My friend called me the other night, yah “friend” would probably be the best word to describe him and the safest actually HAHA. He was just looking for someone to talk to and it’s glad to know that I’m included on his list of “someone to talk to”.

Wednesday, October 15

" You are my sanctuary, that's what you are to me" -dgt

Monday, October 13

Finding Happiness

“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.” 
                                                                                  - Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

You know that feeling, when you know you are doing the right thing but instead of feeling good about yourself you feel that you’re only fooling yourself. It’s kind of similar to what I’m feeling right now.

Saturday, October 11

'' One day you will realize that you've lost the moon while counting the stars''  -dgt                                                                                                                                               


"Mad – empty – crazy – lost – dying... I was all of these things and nothing as well, because even though I breathed and moved, I was not alive.” 
                                                                                                                    - Melanie Cusick-Jones

These past few days I feel like I’m not in my right mind. There are so many things running in my head, so many things I’d like to do, and I don’t know if those things are even necessary in the first place. There’s a nagging voice inside my head that I don’t recognize, that voice keeps telling me what I need to do; what I have to say but all I know is, that voice does not belong to me.

Thursday, October 9

"When you try to be nice, people expect you to be nicer" -dgt

"Knowing what you want and having what you want are two different things." - dgt


Tuesday, October 7

Perfectly Imperfect

But life isn't something that should be edited. Life shouldn't be cut. The only way you'll ever discover what it truly means to be alive and human is by sharing the full experience of what it means to be human and each blemish and freckle that comes with it.” 
                                                                                                -  Iain Thomas

When I was younger I wanted to be the perfect girl everybody loves, I guess we all reached that “I want to be like … blah blah blah” stage, the stage when we were like attention-seekers, we want to be noticed, we want to be popular, we beg for the approval of every person within our circle, or maybe it’s just me, but I definitely have outgrown that stage. 

Monday, October 6

"It is dreadful to know that being yourself is not good enough." -dgt

Saturday, October 4

"You were my guilty indulgence" -dgt

Friday, October 3

Missing You

"If only you knew how much I think about you."

You're forcing yourself to blot out someone from your memory but the process itself triggered some emotions; emotions that you don’t want to feel, the feeling of longing, needing, yearningMISSING.

There were times you thought you’re better than fine, cause everything seems to be normal, you were doing good. You thought you’ll never be happy again without your source of happiness but luckily you’ve successfully helped yourself, and  finally, you were able to see things in a better perspective, then one tiny stupid memory will bring back every single feeling you’ve buried in the deepest possible place no one can touch.